The great big void

I don't know what happened.. I mean we've known each other for years.. but yet you almost always keep ignoring me.. maybe you're busy with stuff.. or maybe i'm just being paranoid or whatever.. when i text you don't reply.. when i write you a comment you don't reply.. but those are really not important and i don't keep it to myself.. but then when we met you didn't even say hi to me or even glance at me.. maybe it's because i don't keep in touch with you. i don't know.. if that's so then it's my fault and i apologise.. i don't know how this will continue.. but i'm silently hoping there's no ending to it.. friendships are meant to be forever.

Whole new perspective on life

Well started college now.. studying SAM at disted.. Hope everything goes well i guess.. Things happen and ya i'm still kinda sad bout it.. But i guess we just gotta move on with life.. Met some new friends.. was actually lost on the first day but luckily friends navigated me all the way to my classes.. haha.. anyway what i did on monday.. well i spend almost the whole day at the library.. then saw Jess and Felix on the way to the car.. Then went to sunrise mcd with Liang, Andy, Roger and Jade.. i guess that's all that happened on my orientation day.. Didn't really get to know the people in my class yet tho.. aahh spooky.. Anyway went to my first class today.. specialist math was... HARD.. was kinda lonely during maths and ESL cause i don't really know any of the March intake people. damn. haha well that's all for today i guess.. really shortened it up..

I will never understand

It seems i was never able to understand you.. Although i kept trying my best.. Hoping and hoping that this would work out. But alas, it was never meant to be. No i do not blame anybody. The only person who should be blamed is me. I was the one who never understood your feelings. Perhaps what that person said is true. That i would be regretting in the future. NO! i may regret something. But it wasn't choosing you. It was the way i treat you.. She is wrong. I do not regret now, and never will. I know we will never be together again. And whenever i think about it, my shattered heart will keep poking at me with its sharp pointed tips for the mistake that i have done. I have learnt something from this experience. But the cost wasn't worth it. As i send that last msg to you, wishing you all the best. Nobody could understand how i've been. I've been criticised as a person who only go for looks, who is shallow, only looking at outer beauty. This people don't even know who i am. But it's alright, i have my friends who will always support me till the end. So you all can gossip all you want. Thus this is the end. The only thing i could do now is wish you all the best. And be among the audience as you shine upon that stage. Because i love you. now and forever. Although nobody really cares. i CARE. =]

I guess it was never meant to be

What have i done to deserve this? I've never been bad to anyone anyway. Sure some people may label me "lame" or whatever. But i didn't really give a shit bout it tho. i'll keep this short since i don't even have the mood to blog. Will continue pouring my heart out next time. Chao x]