The great big void

I don't know what happened.. I mean we've known each other for years.. but yet you almost always keep ignoring me.. maybe you're busy with stuff.. or maybe i'm just being paranoid or whatever.. when i text you don't reply.. when i write you a comment you don't reply.. but those are really not important and i don't keep it to myself.. but then when we met you didn't even say hi to me or even glance at me.. maybe it's because i don't keep in touch with you. i don't know.. if that's so then it's my fault and i apologise.. i don't know how this will continue.. but i'm silently hoping there's no ending to it.. friendships are meant to be forever.

Whole new perspective on life

Well started college now.. studying SAM at disted.. Hope everything goes well i guess.. Things happen and ya i'm still kinda sad bout it.. But i guess we just gotta move on with life.. Met some new friends.. was actually lost on the first day but luckily friends navigated me all the way to my classes.. haha.. anyway what i did on monday.. well i spend almost the whole day at the library.. then saw Jess and Felix on the way to the car.. Then went to sunrise mcd with Liang, Andy, Roger and Jade.. i guess that's all that happened on my orientation day.. Didn't really get to know the people in my class yet tho.. aahh spooky.. Anyway went to my first class today.. specialist math was... HARD.. was kinda lonely during maths and ESL cause i don't really know any of the March intake people. damn. haha well that's all for today i guess.. really shortened it up..

I will never understand

It seems i was never able to understand you.. Although i kept trying my best.. Hoping and hoping that this would work out. But alas, it was never meant to be. No i do not blame anybody. The only person who should be blamed is me. I was the one who never understood your feelings. Perhaps what that person said is true. That i would be regretting in the future. NO! i may regret something. But it wasn't choosing you. It was the way i treat you.. She is wrong. I do not regret now, and never will. I know we will never be together again. And whenever i think about it, my shattered heart will keep poking at me with its sharp pointed tips for the mistake that i have done. I have learnt something from this experience. But the cost wasn't worth it. As i send that last msg to you, wishing you all the best. Nobody could understand how i've been. I've been criticised as a person who only go for looks, who is shallow, only looking at outer beauty. This people don't even know who i am. But it's alright, i have my friends who will always support me till the end. So you all can gossip all you want. Thus this is the end. The only thing i could do now is wish you all the best. And be among the audience as you shine upon that stage. Because i love you. now and forever. Although nobody really cares. i CARE. =]

I guess it was never meant to be

What have i done to deserve this? I've never been bad to anyone anyway. Sure some people may label me "lame" or whatever. But i didn't really give a shit bout it tho. i'll keep this short since i don't even have the mood to blog. Will continue pouring my heart out next time. Chao x]

I keep wondering, does life have meaning?

Today was great..more so since it was my off day..haha rest and relaxation is a must in life..went out today..bought a new shoe for me..actually my mum wanted to buy another more expensive one for me but i didn't like it..so instead i settled for another cheaper one..just saw that the adidas shoe i bought 2 years ago in Singapore is selling here for rm289..was so shocked...my ankle is feeling so much better after days rest..it's amazing what a short relaxing time can do for you..haha actually planned to wash my shoes today but...lazy-ness kicked in at the wrong time..haha there goes my plan to be less lazy this year right down the drain..oh well..going to Disted in March..going into computer engineering i guess..planning on doing 2 years here in Penang and 1 year in Australia..Jeremy suggested going into mechanical engineering cause alot of job offers..but i read the syallabus and it wasn't a joke =X..i keep wondering whether i'm a good friend..maybe i was childish last time that everybody is now avoiding me..or maybe i'm being too sensitive..haha but i really have to say thx to all the people who see through my old childish ways and accept me for what i am..i really owe you guys so much that i can think of no way to repay it..my only wish is that our friendship will last forever although we will surely part our ways in the roads of life..it's hard to say goodbye to you guys after knowing for so many years...i guess what i can do is promise that i will definitely treasure our brotherhood above anything else...let's hope it perseveres through the years and life's harsh and sometimes cruel reality..

*My new shoes. Atlanta.

*My very own original Shaq O'Neal jersey! =]

Working way too hard,,

I just realised...my ankle bengkak already...haha after 5 days...oh man..i don't know why i didn't realise it earlier..maybe too busy with work..oh well...tomorrow's my off day..so get to rest and use the time to wash my shoes...it's going from white to black by the day...i'm in a bad mood today..something i didn't like happened and don't really want to talk bout it..haih..so i'm keeping my blog short tonight..bye people.

My legs are feeling numb right now...

My legs are feeling numb now..can't wait till this month is over...haha and then i'll get my salary to spend on me..chatting with Sebastian and Juena on messenger right now..do you know it's freaking hard to type in the dark?just found out Sebastian's going to UNSW in Sydney Australia..ah the envy..well...i sang a lullaby to Evelyn this afternoon..haha that was....eerrr....undescribable...no actually it was weird cause i don't sing lullaby to people..=.=..text Evelyn while i was at work cause working is BORING...met Admund,Tatt Wei and David while i was having my break walking around Prangin...we roamed around everywhere till we went to a dvd shop....and the rest is history..have to make a mental note to buy a watch for Juena..i'm really forgetful...it's currently 12.34 right now..and my eyes are seriously tired..haha i better off right now..or my eyes will seriously kill me..gonna meet Tatt Wei tomorrow at 11...i think..oh ya...going out this Saturday to spend time with Siew and Penny and friends..last time i get to see Siew before he takes off to Australia..oh well..i guess this is it for today..=]